LA is not the same! It’s not that I think things should stay the same, but the changes happening here are not to my liking and it starts with the traffic! Can you imagine taking an hour or more of your day to drive no more than 8-10 miles? This is a daily occurrence. (Photo taken from The Daily News.)
This picture is not a fluke. This is what it looks like every day and I can’t take it anymore! What happens is that Los Angelenos do everything to avoid this mess and it’s becoming more and more difficult to see friends or go anywhere…not to mention…road rage is rather common, too!
I miss the feeling of community…peacefulness…calm…less stress…and I’m at the point in my life where I want out! We put up with this because we have great weather in California, but it’s too hard and it’s not working for me anymore.
It’s expensive to live here…I mean really expensive and for me, it’s just not worth it.
I’ve lived in Los Angeles my whole life, so I am not making this decision without a lot of thought, but I feel like I don’t belong here anymore. When I’m at home in my backyard amidst the hummingbirds and butterflies, I feel at peace. But when I venture out to meet a friend for lunch and it takes me 90 minutes to drive eight miles…I feel my sense of calm leaving my body and I don’t like it.
People in Los Angeles used to smile at you…say hello…it didn’t matter if you knew them. We were friendly here in the City of Angels, but sadly, that too, has changed. Rarely when I smile at a stranger do I get one in return. I don’t belong here anymore and it doesn’t feel good.
We’ve thought long and hard about this move. You don’t make decisions like this on a whim. You take your time and you deliberate and you cry and stamp your feet and have arguments, and at the end of the day, you make your decision….and it takes some courage and a lot of faith.
We’re not running away from anything. I believe we’re running towards something…something unknown but it already feels better. Change is good and it’s also hard. My emotions are having their way with me, but I’ve learned to honor and feel them and it’s only when we walk through the fire with determination that we find out what is waiting for us on the other side. I’ve learned to ask for help (more on this later) and I’ve learned to be vulnerable and open to what is possible.
It’s saying goodbye to friends and family that’s so difficult. It’s funny…even though we don’t see our friends that often, because they live all over the place, I know they are just down the road and that gives me comfort.
But…truth be told…it’s leaving the physical closeness of my daughter. I miss her already. We will always be close. I know this, but I’m used to seeing her often and now I won’t be able to do that. My heart hurts just thinking about it. Skype and plane rides will help and my determination to see her and create new adventures that we haven’t known before.
This is one of my favorite pictures of her…She was so happy in Paris!
So there you have it…our reasons for saying good-bye to Los Angeles. It’s going to be a perpetual roller coaster for awhile. Wish us luck.